December 6, 2014
(St. Nicholas, Bishop)
Jesus instructed His disciples to go out and proclaim the Good News of God’s Kingdom. He said, “Without cost you have received; without cost you are to give.” Mt 9:35-10:1, 5a, 6-8
What is it that we DO, beloved, without cost. Do we expect payment for everything we do for others. When someone asks us a favor, are we asking back, “What’s in it for me?” Or do we “Just do it!” out of the purity of our love and kindness?
Funny, when our lives become 100% non-paid, year after year after year, and yes, we truly do appreciate whoever it is that’s supporting us with food and clothing and the shelter we live in; but after enough years go by, we really begin to get frayed from everyone asking us to do all those things they don’t want to do any more themselves. Of asking us to do those things that we, ourselves, wouldn’t want our dog to have to do. It really wears on us. Of course, to the world, if we don’t have one of those grunt jobs, like THEY do, we must just be another worthless piece of !#$@%, who has all that time on their hands. So they think they’re being kind to us by giving us another “task” to not get paid for.
But, we keep on, force a smile on our faces, and think, this must be our penance, this is our palanca for making the world a better place. And try as we might to find another job – there have been so many failures at that too, that we can’t even take that rejection any more, either. Hmmmm, sounds like a basket case.
But wait a minute. Jesus said, without cost we have received – well maybe that’s not quite accurate either. Not that I’m calling Jesus a liar. Just that, just like Him, we are paying a price. It’s the price of keeping sanity. It’s the price of enduring the feeling of being: unnecessary, unwanted, unloved, un-personed. But then again, guess, none of that really matters – if we KNOW that God, that Jesus, loves us despite all that ugliness. So, leave us alone world! We’ll keep on doing our washing, and cleaning, and fixing and inventing and reading and writing and speaking out in His NAME. And we’ll let the chips fall as they may when HE finally does come back to separate us like sheep and goats, to judge us and to condemn us or HUG us. Despite it all, we keep on loving, and loving, and loving. And ONE DAY, there will be recompense! Jesus promises us that!
May our loving God bless you, beloved, this . . .
~ ADVENT! ~
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