June 2, 2015
(Sts. Marcellinus and Peter, Martyrs)
After Tobit unlawfully buried a murdered kinsman, he was stricken with an illness, much like Job, much like Zechariah (the husband of Elizabeth, Mary’s cousin), much like Saul, who would later become Paul. Tobit explained, “For four years I was deprived of eyesight, and all my kinsmen were grieved at my condition.” Tb 2:9-14
(Video link to the Story of Tobit)
Sometimes, beloved, there’s a price we pay before something awesome is about to happen. And in our suffering, as humans, we tend to feel sorry for ourselves, we get angry with everything and everyone around us. We might even fall away from God for moments at a time, and just wonder, why! Why this? Why me? Why now?
Even Jesus, as we heard just a few days ago, got angry at a fig tree for not feeding Him. And then immediately afterwards, He got angry with the merchants at the Temple for abusing God’s Holy space (Mk 11:11-26). Even Jesus prayed before His passion, that God, His Father, would take His suffering away. ‘Yet not my will, but your will be done,‘ He said (Mt 26:42).
If we could get to that point, beloved, in the midst of our suffering, to say, “Not my will but yours be done,” we are pretty extraordinary saints! And I don’t believe that God is looking only for the extraordinary among us. We ARE His children, even when we fall! But being those children of His, we DO have that extra strength of the Holy Spirit within us, to lift us back up, over and over again. Until ONE DAY we will discover the ‘AWESOME,’ that it’s all leading to. And maybe it’s not even in this lifetime. But IT WILL COME!
Just have faith!
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